Time to Sprint. 60k in 6 months

Builder: Hi Mr Home Builder. Did I hear you correctly say that you in house finance barndominium builds?

Builder: No, we can help you find a traditional lender though.

Me: What do they want for a down payment?

Builder: Usually 30%

me: Fuck.

How is your day going? Because that is how mine is going after thinking for the last three months that we would be able to buid a new house for our growing family on land that we own for less than 30% down. So now to tell my wife that I was wrong and that our 4 person family is stuck in our 2 bed house forever. It seems I can never get ahead. Alex Hormuz says in his book that he needed 10 grand in a month so he magically created a course and sold 20k worth. How is it that some people are successful so easily? I have sat here in my own world for over a decade looking at success blossom all around me while I sit on the sidelines.

I so badly want to be rising with them, but instead I sit here, head in hand, feeling pity for myself because I am “unable” to provide for my family. My new job isn’t panning out, I have no other back up plan. I am fucked. Thats how it would seem is the focal point of my life, how can I fail worse. I don’t want pity, I want motivation. I want someone to say “hey, jackass, get up. Go do it”. So maybe I'll get off my ass and get to work building something. Anything.

Sorry for the rant.